February 13th 2008

I will always remember that day,
that day, when you said,
I was one day too late.
I might laugh it off.
Saying it was a thing of the past.

But know this,
I never stop dreaming of the day,
when I was never one day too late.

I would've been yours,
as you would've been mine.

I would've hold your hand.
Instead of him.

Always know this..
Until the day I
that I meet another soul that can fix my false heart.

I will never forget.
That you stole mine.

さよなら

From start, there she was for me, as I was for her.
In the twilight path where I stroll,
I watched her, as she watched me.
At dawn, she bids me farewell and when the sun is in the sky,
she welcomes me home.

After moons and suns pass by,
she bear more little golden child.
Yet, only one remains.
The pain of losing, soar through the night.
For even the moon hide in tears behind her clouds.

Now, I burrow through the soil. With tears of bitter sorrow.
There, she will be, with her child of the night.
Farewell, I said.
For I will no longer see,
my beloved golden retriever.

Fear

Suddenly,I felt 'that' feeling again.
I'm a man of virtue, yet sometimes, even the most peaceful water will have ripples. I had this dream. Me, getting married and had 6 kids. 6 kids!! It was fun. I played with them. It was so real that I actually felt love. Yes, LOVE, for the children that never exists. Love, for the imaginary wife whom face I can't recall. And every time I come to reality, I had this hole in me. A hole that was already dug deep, and now even deeper. The vast void inside me is getting worst. I fear that I will not able to withstand this feeling. I fear that someday I will succumbed to its emptiness and perish. I fear, I will not be loved. I'm scared.

Deception

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Time after time.

It began 3 weeks ago, and now it felt like yesterday.
Working in Vegas was a blast, meeting some interesting customers as well as getting to know the boss. Thing are getting better for me too. But sometimes I wonder, did made the right choice.

Giving up my studies to work.

Was it a wise decision? Or just a reckless one?

The answer for that question may not be related but, the thought that I have was very simple. I have made the decision, and now whether or not I choose to follow the path I created. The path that lies up ahead is simple, work and enjoy life as it is. For what I'm having is a great time but still I can't help but to think of what would happen if I didn't work.

That, however belongs to the other universe. Right now, I'm just a happy guy enjoying my time.

Vegas : Begins Night

It began with a gush of heavy rain that evening and it didn't stop until I was asleep. I had an early dinner at Garney, after Daniel drop me off at 5.20pm. Rushing towards to the restaurant, GY borrowed me his plastic cheap ass rain coat and I barely use it to cover myself. Introduction was quick and brief but the practical part is hard and very complicated.

It was tough at the beginning hour and gradually turned easier every minute pass. Aside from the codes and order rushing, I'm used to the work in Vegas as a waiter. That night was a rush and I doubt that I will not see any night worst then that. However, Ah Hao, a full time worker there was really helpful to me and to my surprise, I never thought that he was only 22 years old when he looked like 25 years old. The day ended with me mopping the floor and chatting with Simon and Ming ge behind the kitchen. The first night was good, and I really hope that I can be a better help than yesterday.