さよなら

From start, there she was for me, as I was for her.
In the twilight path where I stroll,
I watched her, as she watched me.
At dawn, she bids me farewell and when the sun is in the sky,
she welcomes me home.

After moons and suns pass by,
she bear more little golden child.
Yet, only one remains.
The pain of losing, soar through the night.
For even the moon hide in tears behind her clouds.

Now, I burrow through the soil. With tears of bitter sorrow.
There, she will be, with her child of the night.
Farewell, I said.
For I will no longer see,
my beloved golden retriever.

Fear

Suddenly,I felt 'that' feeling again.
I'm a man of virtue, yet sometimes, even the most peaceful water will have ripples. I had this dream. Me, getting married and had 6 kids. 6 kids!! It was fun. I played with them. It was so real that I actually felt love. Yes, LOVE, for the children that never exists. Love, for the imaginary wife whom face I can't recall. And every time I come to reality, I had this hole in me. A hole that was already dug deep, and now even deeper. The vast void inside me is getting worst. I fear that I will not able to withstand this feeling. I fear that someday I will succumbed to its emptiness and perish. I fear, I will not be loved. I'm scared.