Fear

Suddenly,I felt 'that' feeling again.
I'm a man of virtue, yet sometimes, even the most peaceful water will have ripples. I had this dream. Me, getting married and had 6 kids. 6 kids!! It was fun. I played with them. It was so real that I actually felt love. Yes, LOVE, for the children that never exists. Love, for the imaginary wife whom face I can't recall. And every time I come to reality, I had this hole in me. A hole that was already dug deep, and now even deeper. The vast void inside me is getting worst. I fear that I will not able to withstand this feeling. I fear that someday I will succumbed to its emptiness and perish. I fear, I will not be loved. I'm scared.